I'm about as type A as they come. I love order, lists, routine, schedules, being on time! I'm not built for a hectic, crazy life of unknowns! But that's the life we are currently living. Don't get me wrong, I'm insanely lucky to have the life I do, but that doesn't mean it isn't stressful at times.
Rewind a few weeks back, when we were getting ready for Ken to head back to London to finish up the last little bit of his Masters. We were just starting to make way with the wedding planning, I was about to start a very intensive cardiac program at work - all this as we were winding down to the last few days together before he took off. Although we knew all along that he was going to return to London without me, it still felt unbelievably difficult to do as we got close to take off time. We were both secretly thinking "I wish he didn't have to go" and "I wish I didn't have to leave her", but both kept our mouths shut to not make it any harder on one another. To make the situation worse, we were hit with an e-mail that stated Ken was to be in London a few weeks earlier than we had planned. That's where we hit our breaking point. Although it was only a few weeks difference, we knew we couldn't do it. Especially as I was about to start a very demanding program and only months before our wedding!
It was kind of a romantic moment, realizing that we genuinely couldn't be apart that long. It felt like a real life Notebook scene. We talked a lot that night about what makes him leaving this time so different from the last time (we were long distance for about a year, before I moved to London to be with him), and realized it all came down to now being engaged. It's not just a pretty ring on your finger. We have both agreed to commit our lives to one another - the rest of our time on this planet - will be spent together. And although we have been together for 11 years, something changed the day he got down on one knee. For the better. I can honestly say we are more in love today than we ever have been.
But that was that, he wasn't going to leave. Final decision. 24 hours before he was set to leave, we cancelled all plans. PHEW. I was more than relieved. I was beside myself before we made the final decision. I was distracted at work, unmotivated, couldn't eat and was just sad!
Ken is totally NOT type A. Opposites attract, just as they say. So not even 2 weeks after we made this huge life decision, Ken was onto the next adventure. Jumping into real estate. He had been passively looking at places and investment properties for sometime now, but we just so happened to fall in love with one place this past weekend. So we went from Ken leaving the country, to Ken staying home, to putting in an offer on an apartment in Vancouver. Turns out, the deal didn't go through (we just found out a couple of hours ago) but I know all was meant to be in the end. But boy, does this guy like to keep me on my toes! Secretly I think he likes to keep our lives constantly hectic just to watch me squirm and stress out! Haha!
So in a one year period, we have moved from London to Vancouver, settled in a new apartment, decided that Ken wouldn't return to London to finish school (for now, it will happen in the future), almost bought our first piece of real estate, I am preparing to start a new training program at work, and are potentially moving back to London (together!) in the near future- all while planning our wedding. My god, I don't know how I'm still standing.
My hopes for the coming year is that we find a place to call home and we can settle down! Although with Ken by my side, I'm not so sure that will happen. But at the end of the day, it makes life exciting! And although all this stressed me right out, I wouldn't have it any other way :)
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